Oh to be in sunny California some days...

just found something out. great news for peeps living in california (LA to be exact) but sucky for peeps like me in good ol' isolated michigan. and i don't think there's a way to get my hands on one of these either. not to mention what else is going on there. Soldier aka: Heidi, please go there & get me one! no, but c'mon Mark, leave your state sometime. see why THIS makes me cry (well, not cry but do this >_<)!!! i mean he IS my fave artist EVER. (and this michigan weather is terrible-cold cold & COLD! i need to feel what warm weather is like again.)

wow, peeps really liked Anarchy by KMFDM. i was actually very surprised. i'm so happy you guys enjoyed it! and SKOLD rules...had to throw that in there again!

what a day. typical monday, always a lil' crazy. so i worked for a bit and i wrote a long story inbetween helping peeps. i'm gonna post it on the Despair blogger that i just recently became a contributor for. this sad story is about an old friend and strange events leading up to her...well, that's for you to find out. i was gonna post it today but did you ever hear the old saying "Let things (you write about) sit sometimes." i really think it needs to sit a while. it didn't help that it was hard as heck for me to write an ending that satisfied me...and that could very well change again. endings are usually a b!tch for me. so yeah, it's best for it to not get posted yet. PLUS, i have no desire to sit here & type it all up right now (didn't save it to a memory stick either). it came to about 2 pages typed (but the font was at 14, so maybe it wasn't tooooo long right?!?).

i have a neurologist appointment tomorrow morning. fun stuff. i made it to hopefully get me some relief aka: medication. i been having these terrible migraines that occur about 2-3 days (in a row mind you) a month. i feel kinda nervous about going and i don't know why...just feel that way with doctors sometimes. especially new doctors & going over every little thing, ahh. i just hope he doesn't ask where the pain feels like it's coming from cuz it really feels like my whole head is about to explode. again, >_<...soooo, wish me luck peeps! been needing this appointment for a while. and BIG thanks again diane for telling about what you take. i'm gonna mention that med to him to see what he says, as well as some others i found out about.

OMG, it's a lil' past 9 pm! where does the time go?!? oh, one more thing, i got 2 new followers today-woo hoo! that brings the curious headcount to 13, my second fave number...1st is 6SIX6. NO, not 666...just 6. just wanted to write it like that. night night all. til tomorrow.~

Misery Update...& on the +Plus+ Side

hi friends. sorry my previous post was such a downer, but so is life sometimes, right? well, i didn't go to work. i had about an hour before i was due in and i just couldn't do it. i was laying in my bed & thought i would be in pure misery if i do go in. just sitting there...& talking to/helping people would even be too much. and the lights. God, the bright lights in that place. they kill! so even though i need the money, like most peeps do these day, i just couldn't do it. and i'm glad i'm only part-time cuz luckily i can get away with missing a day here & there. and the college is still on winter break, so it's not like a lot of peeps will show up (students, etc...)...it's just the ones who do are ALWAYS in a bad mood. it's true. i don't know what's in the water when there's a break. peeps have serious attitude & on a day like today, i would just LOVE to give 'em a nice slap! =] (bad eve)

so as i said in my previous title, misery doesn't love company because i really don't like to be around anyone when i feel this way. i'm feeling a tad better because i rested for a while but i think i just need a good night's sleep and hopefully by tomorrow i'll be seeing clearer.

*BIG THANKS to DIANE* for the concern in my other post. i will try looking into the drug you spoke of. i didn't mention this in my email to you Diane, but unfortunately my medical doctor doesn't like to put me on migraine meds cuz she specializes in cardiology...& she always thinks things are bad for my heart (because i have a high heart rate as well). so getting things 'cleared' with her doesn't usually work out. but if i have to see another doctor, i will because these have become too frequent & if i'm missing even a little work because of 'em, then that's not good!

ooo, i hope my comic strip of Migraine Boy shows up. ha ha ha, i feel like him at certain times. he's my boy!~

Misery Doesn't Love Company

ugh, i gotta work today. gotta be there in about 2 hours. but i'm having a serious migraine. then again, when are they not serious? people describe them in different ways but for me LIGHT & SOUND are my two worst enemies. the light is TOO bright & the sound is TOO loud...always. i've been having these forever & the only drug i can take to prevent them from happening is terribly expensive (even w/my insurance!), so i must feel the pain. which basically feels like my brain is being squished & squished some more in my head. ugh.

luckily, they usually come around only once a month. but unfortunately, they last from 1-3 days. today is day 2 & 1/2...so if it doesn't go away by tomorrow, that's not good. so i prob won't post anymore today cuz it's quite painful (to those who have never experienced one) to just THINK, which is awful. maybe if i would've slept a little better, it would've gone away. i couldn't sleep well because i was laying down for most the day yesterday. so, when bedtime came around, i just couldn't fall asleep for the life of me. basically, i just couldn't get comfortable. you know how that happens when you've been laying around in the same place for a while?

so i'm going to go so i can get ready & relax for a little before work. closing note: this is why i get pissed off about health insurance & US health care in general. even when in tremendous pain, nothing really can be done simply because i can't afford it. it's terrible...fucking terrible that this happens to people everywhere in this country. i feel terrible for peeps worse off than me.~